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5 Things I’ve Been Working on in March

March 17, 2018 by Rachel

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You know I love a good list! Here are my top 5 focus areas for March….

∇ Getting up early. It’s hard for me to find space during a busy day of homemaking & homeschooling to have my own quiet and writing time. This past week I’ve been getting up between 5-5:30 am which is rather brutal for me. I’m not really a morning person OR a night owl-I’m a sleep person! However, I’m really appreciating the quiet and stillness of our small house during those hours before everyone starts the day. Not only am I getting myself all put-together and ready, I’m making the time for meditation, prayer, journaling, and writing. I’m willing to sacrifice some sleep to make it happen, but it’s not easy for me! As part of my devotions, I’m using my friend Ruth’s lovely book, GraceLaced-Discovering Timeless Truths Through Seasons of the Heart.

∇ One-on-one reading time with my youngest, Drew. I’m reading aloud A Wrinkle in Time to everyone, which we all enjoy so much, but Drew has long requested permission to finish the Harry Potter series (up till now I’ve only allowed him to read the first few books) and this is a way we can enjoy them together and I can help him process through the last and most difficult books. We just started Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, and usually read together snuggled on the couch with a good cup of tea or in my bed with a fluffy blanket before nights out.

∇ Exercising and being more active in general. Along with rising early during these dark winter and early spring days, being outside in the cold isn’t my favorite! I’d much rather be glued to a leather coffee shop chair reading the hours away. As I mentioned in this post, I’ve been doing yoga 2-3 times weekly and now I’m being purposeful about adding in more activity in general. Even little things like parking at the far end of the Target parking lot so I can get some extra walking in! I am becoming an Exercise Person and shocking myself at the change.

∇ Saying “yes” more to my kids. Sometimes I feel like I say “no” more than is necessary, so I’m trying to stop and ask myself: How much does {fill in the blank} really matter in the big picture? Is it worth saying no, and if so, why? What will saying yes mean for my child? Saying yes has meant more time spent with friends as our schedule allows, letting them listen to the music of their choice as long as it fits within our family values (which means I’ve heard a lot more rap lately, ha!), deciding their own haircuts and styles, and making creative messes in the kitchen and around the house.

∇ Self-care. Everybody is talking about it these days; it’s a topic on trend and honestly, one I find a lot of value in and enjoy discussing. For me this has included working with a functional medicine doctor, consistently taking my list of prescribed supplements in order to address some deficits in my health, focusing on getting enough sleep, drinking more water, and in general engaging in things that feed my soul (this ties in with the first thing on my list!). Also, dark chocolate because #life.

Here is my last list of 5 things I’ve been working on. What about you? Anything on your list for this month?

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Filed Under: Books, Home Life, Life Thoughts, Reading Tagged With: Books, dark chocolate, family, lists, Reading

Letter 32 {Don’t be Rash}

March 16, 2018 by Rachel

Dear Candace,

For the past week I’ve been afflicted by, as I call it, a body rash. I won’t go into detail on this public forum, but suffice it to say that large portions of my epidermis have been covered in a blotchy, slightly bumpy, incredibly annoying, very ridiculous rash.

Before I get yelled at to go to the doctor, allow me to explain that I don’t have any other symptoms which would warrant an immediate visit to the urgent care, and I’ve been conferring with my doctor (who is, of course, on spring break) and getting advice from nurse friends who have some insight to give me.

As it turns out, rashes are a dark and mysterious, often unexplainable entity. I don’t have hives, shingles, or poison ivy (thanks, nurse friends). According to Google, I have no less than 50 diseases. Feeling in the mood to be terrified? Here, just search “rashes and their causes” on Google images. You’re welcome. Sweet dreams.

Benadryl and creams of all sorts have been helping me cope. Thankfully, a week in and I’m almost over it, I think. Could it be viral, or a reaction to something I was newly prescribed? Yes. There’s also a high chance I’ve been experimented on by aliens. Turns out they don’t want me.

You can’t ignore a rash like this. Its become a part of me, of my identity. “Hi, my name is Rachel and I have a Rash.” At a department store recently, while getting fitted and surveyed for proper formal attire, I blurted out my rash story in an apology voice. The lady with the measuring tape just grunted. To my relief, it didn’t seem to bother her. As I looked at myself in the mirror, wearing the dress I’ll probably have on at my sister’s wedding next week, a commentary ran through my mind:

“This is our sister Rash Rachel, featuring a neck rash of epic proportions vying with her necklace for the biggest statement.”

“What was she like before the rash? We can’t remember, but we think her skin was very white.”

I took an oatmeal bath during the peak of my rash season, since Google and everybody else recommended it for its “skin-soothing properties.” The oats were in a fine mesh bag so they didn’t make a mess in the tub; the water turned a resulting milky oat color. I couldn’t tell any difference in my skin afterwards, though squeezing oat slime out of the bag was kind of fun, plus once I put coconut oil in my hair I smelled like granola.

I ran across this funny cartoon during all my investigations-

Doctor, to his over-large patient: “It’s not a rash, it’s moss. You need to start being more active than a tree.”

That’s the more likely explanation in my case. Maybe I’ll walk today.

Wishing for clear skies and clear skin,

Rachel

Letter 31 {A Return}

Letter 33 {Wedding, Donuts}

Photo by Andrea Tummons on Unsplash

Filed Under: Everyday stories, Letters to Candace, Uncategorized Tagged With: laugh with me, Letter

Tommy & Tuppence

March 15, 2018 by Rachel

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I was recently rearranging some books and came across a stack of well-worn Agatha Christie novels. {I mentioned one in my top favorites list here.} When I saw my copy of The Secret Adversary, I couldn’t help but smile. In this book we’re introduced to a charming couple I adore: Tommy & Tuppence.

Many people are familiar with Agatha Christie the great mystery writer and her intelligent detective Hercule Poirot and character-discerning Miss Marple, but lesser known are her stories about stumbled-into-it sleuths Tommy and Tuppence. They meet after the first world war as young twenty-somethings and are depicted true to their time; the book was published in 1922. Tommy is genuine, reliable and thoughtful. He’s less likely to be rash and more likely to carefully assess a situation. Tuppence (whose true name is Prudence) is his natural balance with her impetuous and bold personality. She can be a bit of a goose sometimes, but her heart is good. The account of their friendship is very dear to me, and I find their stories to be nearly perfect in every way.

Postern of Fate is the final book in which they appear, having aged with the books and last shown to be in their seventies. It’s one of my recent re-reads and I love how it carries the story of a timeless couple. In fact, it’s not one of Christie’s best mystery novels but I read and appreciate it for the narrative of one of my favorite literary romances. Look at me, getting all sentimental over book characters!

I wrote the following to a friend and thought I’d share it here as well:

Christie’s books have been my companions since I was a teenager, and are especially delightful for travel. They make long car rides and trans-Atlantic flights bearable and even enjoyable. I first started out with “Ten Little Indians” and that made me an addict. I’m in the habit of purchasing cheap paperback copies of her books for such occasions, and leaving them at airports or other waiting areas when I’m finished with them, so someone else can fall in love with Poirot or Miss Marple or dear Tommy and Tuppence.

The Tommy and Tuppence books are my very favorite of Agatha Christie’s characters. When I read the following passage in “Postern of Fate,” I couldn’t help but think it highly resembled the dynamics of my relationship with Tom and similar conversations we’ve had, and was exceedingly funny:

‘Tuppence! Tommy called, as he came into the house.

There was no answer. With some annoyance, he ran up the stairs and along the passage on the first floor. As he hastened along it, he nearly put his foot through a gaping hole, and swore promptly.

‘Some other bloody careless electrician,’ he said.

Some days before he had had the same kind of trouble. Electricians arriving in a kindly tangle of optimism and efficiency had started work. ‘Coming along fine now, not much more to do,’ they said. ‘We’ll be back this afternoon.’ But they hadn’t been back that afternoon; Tommy was not precisely surprised. He was used, now, to the general pattern of labor in the building trade, electrical trade, gas employees and others. They came, they showed efficiency, they made optimistic remarks, they went away to fetch something. They didn’t come back. One rang up the numbers on the telephone but they always seem to be the wrong numbers. If they were the right numbers, the right man was not working at this particular branch of the trade, whatever it was. All one had to do was be careful to not rick an ankle, fall through a hole, damage yourself in some way or another. He was far more afraid of Tuppence damaging herself than he was of doing the damage to himself.

He had had more experience than Tuppence. Tuppence, he thought, was more at risk from scalding herself from kettles or disasters with the heat of the stove. But where was Tuppence now? He called again.

‘Tuppence! Tuppence!’

He worried about Tuppence. Tuppence was one of those people you had to worry about. If you left the house, you gave her last words of wisdom and she gave you last promises of doing exactly what you counseled her to do: no, she would not be going out except just to buy half a pound of butter, and after all you couldn’t call that dangerous, could you?

‘It could be dangerous if you went out to buy half a pound of butter,’ said Tommy.

‘Oh,’ said Tuppence, ‘don’t be an idiot.

‘I’m not being an idiot,’ Tommy had said. ‘I am just being a wise and careful husband, looking after something which is one of my favorite possessions. I don’t know why it is –’

‘Because,’ said Tuppence, ‘I am so charming, so good looking, such a good companion and because I take so much care of you.’

‘That also, maybe,’ said Tommy, ‘but I could give you another list.’

‘I don’t feel I should like that,’ said Tuppence. ‘No, I don’t think so. I think you have several saved-up grievances. But don’t worry. Everything will be quite all right. You’ve only got to come back and call me when you get in.’

But now where was Tuppence ?

‘The little devil,’ said Tommy. ‘She’s gone out somewhere.’

Often when I’m flying out the door to go somewhere, even just the grocery store, Tom calls after me, “Be good!” Be good? When am I NOT a good little wifey? Or he may add, “Don’t do anything that I wouldn’t do.” “Well that’s a lot of things,” I may grumble back.

If this amuses/interests you even slightly, I suggest you start with The Secret Adversary (where our couple reconnects as old friends, become inadvertent blackmailers, then find they want to pursue a life of detecting) and work your way through the five Tommy & Tuppence books after which we can Discuss over a proper tea and form our own book club. Just a thought.

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Filed Under: Books, Reading, Uncategorized Tagged With: 1920's, book review, Booklist, Books, Letter, Reading

Letter 31 {A Return}

March 10, 2018 by Rachel

Dear Candace,

It’s been almost 30 weeks since my last letter. {Letter 30} It’s like I planned this!

I did not plan this. I plan nothing.

As I reflect on that last letter and our time at the ocean, it seems much more distant than 30 weeks. That’s what winter does to you. Winter keeps you in its winter grip, dimming memories of sunshine and warm. I miss warm. Please don’t console me with words of spring; I prefer being melancholy right now.

Here are the top things you need to know about the past 30 weeks, in case I’ve forgotten to mention them:

I’ve been reading more, so that’s a good thing. In fact, I just devoured Ann Rule’s The Stranger Beside Me so fast I’m still dizzy. At almost 500 pages, it’s no light read. I chose her book on Ted Bundy, convicted serial killer (who I knew very little about), over numerous piles of laundry and I feel I made the right choice.

Ann writes carefully, thoughtfully, honestly. She humanizes Ted as she grapples with what her friendship with him meant as well as her slow discovery that, unbelievably, he really was capable of and responsible for atrocious crimes. She compassionately brings the victims’ stories to light so they will not be forgotten or overlooked. I need you to read this ASAP so we can DISCUSS.

Following a somewhat dark (or at least sobering) thread, I also recently read Everything I Never Told You, by Celeste Ng. Even though the story is fictional, the relationships and scenarios described were very relatable. The real life ending left me alternately devastated and hopeful. It’s a book I’ll be thinking about for a long time.

It was fun times helping pull off a Bachelorette party for my sister Naomi. {Instagram picture here.} She’s getting married at the end of the month! Do I have a dress picked out? That would be a NO. I’m trying, though, I really am. I’ve tried on so many dresses the inside of dressing rooms have begun to feel like a familiar cell.

For the Bachelorette, instead of a fancy dinner at one restaurant, we visited three different small-plate style restaurants in St. Louis which was perfect; props to my sister Keturah for planning our destinations: Taste, Planter’s House, & Bridge. Before the party officially started, I managed to lock us all out of our hotel bathroom with a hot iron on inside. I’d been brushing my teeth at the time while wandering around (?) and had a mouthful of spit when I tried to get back in the bathroom. Why do hotel bathrooms need locks, anyway? We waited around in our finery, me with fuzzy toothpaste all over my teeth, until hotel staff came up to unlock the door, which was not awkward for me at all.

My insomnia is better and I’m SUPER thankful for that. It’s annoying to not be able to sleep well and soundly, and this experience has deepened my sympathy for people with chronic sleep issues more severe than mine. I’ve been working on a bedtime routine to aid in successful slumbers; I’ll have to share more about that. I feel like I’m concocting a magical sleep recipe every night, complete with a bunny eye mask-!

What else? I traveled a little. By myself to CO for a retreat, with the family to TX for hurricane relief work, to TN for holiday celebrations. I must’ve done a few other things, too, but now all I can think about is all that laundry I put off…

Thanks for reading; you’re the best-

Rachel

Letter 30 {Beach Bums}

Letter 32 {Don’t be Rash}

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Filed Under: Books, Everyday stories, Letters to Candace, Travel Tagged With: Awkwardness, Books, laugh with me, Letter, Reading

Rose Gold Favorites

March 5, 2018 by Rachel

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Rose gold is the new black. A couple years ago I said mustard was the new black, and I was sincere though misguided. I amend my previous statement to clarify that rose gold, not mustard, is the new black. What does this mean, exactly? If you have to ask then you don’t know. Just leave this blog now and go search your heart. Is any of this confusing? How about we just get to what’s important, which is my obsession with all things rose gold:

∇ First of all, these Signature Rose Gold Leather Earrings from Nickle & Suede. I gifted them to myself for Christmas (sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do) and then, surprise! My mom gave me ANOTHER rose gold pair in a different shape. I think I’ve exclusively worn both pairs in 2018. They are so light I forget I’m wearing them, and they go with everything. People are constantly asking me about them when I’m out in public so if you are an extreme introvert be aware of this side effect of potential human interaction.

∇ Hoop earrings from Target. When I was checking out at Trader Joe’s recently, my cashier was wearing these hoops which accentuated her adorable pixie cut. Naturally, I had on my own rose gold earrings and so we complimented each other on our extreme good taste while also discussing the contents of my cart: cheese, olives, and rice mochi snacks.

∇ This Romeo & Juliet jacket from Evereve. IT HAS ROSE GOLD STARS NEED I SAY MORE.

∇ Rose gold clogs via Lotta from Stockholm. {Plan: buy these clogs, go to Stockholm.} I do not own this adorable footwear, but someone might mention to my husband that they’d make a great gift and would match my leather earrings and therefore improve my quality of life.

∇ For a perfectly glamorous wire basket suited to all your basketing needs, check out this coppery rose gold Project 62 basket.

∇ My French Press has got to be a decade old, and showing it, so I’m thinking of replacing it with this rose gold number that gets great reviews on Amazon.

Is that all? No. That is never all. But it will get you started! Do you have rose gold favorites, too? Share the links here; I’d love to see!

Oh look-here’s a photo of me wearing the above mentioned jacket + earrings:

Me with my lovely sister, Esther

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Filed Under: Fashion, Favorites List, Lists Tagged With: Coffee, fashion, favorites, lists, rose gold

What is Saving My Life Right Now

February 2, 2018 by Rachel

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Remember that thing called SUMMER? It feels like a myth to me right now. The vaguest of dreams. These depictions of January by cartoonist Rox Chast pretty much sum up all my January feelings:

Year-At-A-Glance

Cruellest Month

Yet here we are, halfway through winter! {And everyone in the Midwest said, “Amen.”} Inspired by Anne at Modern Mrs. Darcy, I’m sharing things which are positively contributing to my winter days in big and small ways. At the end you’ll find a sources list, should you want to check them out yourself.

∇ Hygge in the form of white unscented CANDLES. During my visit to Copenhagen fall of 2016, I fell in love with the Dane’s use of white candles. Every restaurant and cafe had them. They burned in masses on silver platters in niche boutiques, single pillars on outdoor tables, coffee shop candelabras, in every size and form imaginable, tucked into nooks and crannies, but always white, always cozy, always inviting one to sit awhile and just be. While I do love the right kind of scented candle, I’m very picky about them, and only burn one on occasion. The white unscented variety is perfect for everyday use, especially when I’m using my next favorite winter save, which is…

∇ An essential oil air DIFFUSER. I’m not an oils aficionado by any means, but I definitely appreciate how the diffuser has a way of cleaning and refreshing the air in my home {word: boys} without toxicity or giving me a headache. I’m still using Christmas blends because who doesn’t love that fresh evergreen scent mixed with a bit of citrus?

∇ Next on my list is READING. I mentioned this in my “5 Things I’ve Been Working on in January” post. Reading aloud with the children (history after breakfast, a novel during lunch), aloud to Tom while he drives, and finally to myself at the end of the day brings me so much joy.

∇ SOUP. We’ve been having some kind of comforting soup at least once a week since Christmas. When everyone had a head cold, it was homemade chicken and veggie soup. Then thick and creamy chana dal. Spiced cauliflower soup, curried pumpkin lentil, hearty beef stew…there is a soup for every mood and preference! I gravitate towards simple, healthy and hearty. I refuse to slave over soup. I cannot.

∇ YOGA. My sister Mara has been encouraging me to try yoga for a long time, but I whined (“your class is too far away from me”) and procrastinated (“I have too many other things to do”). We joined our local YMCA last fall, and it’s literally 5 minutes from my house. There was no excuse left in my bag of excuses. I needed to practice self care and get my body moving more, and it wasn’t happening at home like it should. So I made myself go to the Y and take a couple classes before the holidays, and I was hooked. Immediately in January I started up again. Do I get tangled up with myself in class? Yes. Does the instructor have to come and gently correct me so I don’t injure something? All the time. Yet I LOVE it! It’s gentle, focused, and a wonderful way for me spend an hour on mental and physical health.

Where to find all the things:

I usually purchase white unscented candles at IKEA. Also, Amazon.

This is the diffuser I’m using in the living room. I love how it fits with my semi-mid-century look. Here are some favorite winter blends I’ve used recently:

Balsam Branches {5 drops balsam fir + 3 drops orange +3 drops cinnamon bark}

Evergreen {4 drops balsam fir + 3 drops blue spruce + 3 drops pine}

Cider {4 drops orange + 2 drops nutmeg + 1 drop cinnamon bark + 1 drop clove}

Books mentioned: Exploring World History, Derwood, Inc., Your Best Year Ever, Salt to the Sea

Soups:

Chicken & veggie-I usually don’t use a recipe, but this one from Pioneer Woman is basically what I do!

Chana dal-again, no recipe but I do variations like this Hearty Chana Dal Soup and Instant Pot Chana Dal Soup

Spiced Cauliflower

Curried Pumpkin Lentil

Beef Stew-by now it’s clear I like to wing-it for certain recipes, so I give you Sunday Night Stew and Beef Stew with Beer from Pioneer Woman because they are LEGIT.

Yoga online: my daughter loves Yoga with Adrienne! And I love Jennifer, my instructor at the Y. If you’re local to me, please come join me for a class. I will wear my “Majestically Awkward” shirt and it will be fun!

What’s saving your life this winter? I’d love to hear!

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Filed Under: Books, Everyday stories, Home Life, Lists, Reading Tagged With: Booklist, Books, Reading, sanity, winter list

5 Things I’ve Been Working on in January

January 22, 2018 by Rachel

January is generally a time for looking back and looking forward, reassessing what works and what doesn’t, and taking the opportunity at the start of a new year to have purpose and make plans. {I feel very Adult saying as much, but truthfully I’ve loved this sort of thing since I was a teen.} Here are some things I’ve been working on this month:

∇ Reading consistently, both for my own personal enjoyment + education and aloud to the children.

∇ Our weekly morning routine: we got oh so lazy over the holidays and it was delightful.

∇ De-cluttering & organizing around the house. {Currently a mess but they say it gets better.}

∇ Eating mindfully. I haven’t had any fries this month, which is cause for equal rejoicing and mourning.

∇ Thinking about the year ahead and working on setting and implementing seasonal intentions for myself, for Tom and I, for each of the children, and as a family unit. That is A LOT for my brain to undertake, by the way. I need a whole month for it.

What about you? I’m curious to hear, please share!

Photo by Yousef Espanioly on Unsplash

Filed Under: Home Life, Organization Tagged With: Goals, organize, Reading

The Story of My Near-Death Experience

December 19, 2017 by Rachel

Disclaimer: this is not exactly your usual fare of holiday joy & cheer. I must warn you that I’m writing from my Serious Place here, so if you need to skip to something lighter, please do. I’m never offended by skipping. I myself am a skipper. Not literally, because that would be dangerous. I digress. Here are my remembrances on dying:

For me the sensation of dying was much like being underwater.

You’re nine years old and sitting at the bottom of the pool. The pressure of the water at the bottom tugs at you, pulling. Your arms wave in a motion meant to help you stay there, below the churning surface and heat of the sunshine. You’re blanketed. The distortion of voices from above and around you are muffled and far away. It’s just you here in this watery, wavey world. 

When Robert at church shared the story of the woman with the issue of blood {Luke 8:43-48}, I had just been reading one of my favorite sections in scripture, the second chapter in the book of Jonah. As he read the verses describing the interaction between the woman and Jesus, the words of Jonah echoed in my heart.

My mind immediately snapped back to fifteen years prior, when I had just delivered Caleb and something went wrong, very wrong. As Robert spoke of Jesus’s compassion and grace I remembered when this was part of my story, too.

And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years, but no one could heal her.

When my body began hemorrhaging uncontrollably I looked up at my mom, holding my newborn son, to say my last whispered coherent thought before I went unconscious. “All I have to do is touch the hem of His robe.” In that moment, with remarkable clarity, I remembered the story of the woman who was healed after she reached for the edge of Jesus’s robe. I had her faith, given to me right when I needed it. I knew I could be healed. This was my one thought, my one focus. Not my firstborn son, or my husband helplessly cradling me in his arms, or the voices calling out and telling me to hang on.

In my distress I called to the Lord,
    and he answered me.
From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help,
    and you listened to my cry.

As the team around me injected my body with life-saving drugs and I was laid flat with my lower body elevated, I felt a detachment from my body. All became quieted. I was underwater, and the frantic orders and activity around me were heard as though I was sitting at the bottom of the pool and my friends were far away, chatting at the edge where I could barely hear them. The filter of water began to fill my ears with the thick sound of silence; my vision darkened and became softer. I instinctively knew I was dying. I sensed how easy and peaceful it was. I was not afraid; dying in that moment would be a gentle transition for me. Yet my spirit also recognized it wasn’t time and I would be healed. I kept my eyes fixed on Jesus’s robe. I can hardly explain this even now.

When my life was ebbing away,
    I remembered you, Lord,
and my prayer rose to you,
    to your holy temple.

I was told I began to pray aloud while slipping in and out of consciousness, but I have no memory of this. I can only recall where my mind was, tucked away in a place of trust even in the darkness.

 She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped.

As my condition began to stabilize, sounds grew more articulate and my vision became focused.

I was alive! I was alive.

In the presence of all the people, she told why she had touched him and how she had been instantly healed. Then he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.”

My recovery was long and painful, as being pulled from the edge of death often is. What happened that day literally changed my life. Rarely have I spoken about my experience in detail, since for days and years I couldn’t find the words. Many of my friends have no idea how close I was to leaving earth-side. I was sentient to something I couldn’t describe in my native language.

“Those who cling to worthless idols
    turn away from God’s love for them.
 But I, with shouts of grateful praise,
    will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good.
    I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the Lord.’”

Being reminded of my story that day in church, I share it now with a desire and hope for each of us to look to our Creator. He has numbered our days; our time is in His hands. He heals as well as walks with us in suffering. His ways are higher than our own. My life did not end in a physical death that day, but it will and when it does I am confident of my salvation and belonging.

“You never know how much you really believe anything until its truth of falsehood becomes a matter of life and death to you. It is easy to say you believe a rope to be strong and sound as long as you are merely using it to cord a box. But suppose you had to hang by that rope over a precipice. Wouldn’t you then first discover how much you really trusted it?” C.S. Lewis

“Death is no more than passing from one room into another. But there’s a difference for me, you know. Because in that other room I shall be able to see.” Helen Keller

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Filed Under: Faith, Life Thoughts Tagged With: death & dying, faith, scripture

Rachel Goes to a Coffee Shop

December 6, 2017 by Rachel

It seemed straightforward enough. People do it every day, all the time. I’m a millennial; shouldn’t I be most at home in a coffee shop? Yet things rarely ever do go as I plan them.

I was there early, though not as much as I’d hoped because drying my hair took longer than it should have. I think my hair dryer of 10+ years has quite outlived it’s cost-per-use and needs to replaced. I think of this just about every other day when I am standing at the bathroom sink drying my hair. It shouldn’t take so long to get the job done. Have you seen my hair? I’ve seen BABIES with more hair.

I had perhaps an hour to write and look pensive before my morning commitments began, so into the coffee shop I walked, bag over my shoulder. I was further from home and rarely visited this particular place. While waiting in line to place my order (regular dark roast, please) I selected a pair of socks because I need socks and they were made with proper amounts of wool and cotton. It wasn’t until I was paying for them I realized the wool must be from Australia’s finest frolicking merino sheep because it cost nearly as much as the sheep. One doesn’t simply return coffee shop socks to the shelf when the hipster coffee shop barista is staring at you stroking them.

Here is the thing. This particular location seemed to be full of business professionals. There were lots of suits, lipstick, and clicking heels. Everyone appeared to be having an important breakfast meeting. Only a small percentage of patrons were students, moms-running-errands like me, or bearded men in plaids. A very small percentage, and mainly stuck in odd corners or along the window seating.

I chose a table next to a suited gentleman clicking away on his Mac with a Bluetooth device attached to his ear. When I sat down and sipped my coffee, I realized I needed cream. I returned with creamy coffee and began pulling out my planner, whereupon I remembered I needed napkins because I’d already dripped the coffee. After finding and placing napkins on my table and digging in my bag some more, it became clear I’d left my phone IN THE VAN. I stood up again, leaving my coffee and hoping no one would clear my table before I came back. It may have been my imagination, but as I left my table for the third time Bluetooth Suit did seem to be developing a nervous twitch.

At last, returning to the table with my security blanket {phone} and definitely cooler coffee, my bladder alerted me to its desperate need. I kept half my stuff there and ran to the bathroom, nearly knocking over a chair on my way. Once I returned and pulled out my Chromebook, I went to plug it in when I discovered…I had no outlet. The outlets were along the windows where the students and plaids were sitting. Did I dare risk getting up again to walk past my neighbor, who was now eyeing me sternly? I decided to stay until the last minute, when my battery was for real shutting down.

Five minutes later, I packed everything back up and shifted to the one available window seat next to a couple girls pouring over their study notes.

How anyone gets anything done in a coffee shop I have no idea at this point. However, this was my window of time and I was going to squeeze every drop out of it. I finished my cold coffee, sip by sip, writing out my thoughts, line by line, and then it was all-too quickly time to leave.

Goodbye, Bluetooth Suit. I know you’ll miss me.

Wait-I’m back I LEFT MY BOOK UGH.

Photo credit: Nafinia Putra and Jason Briscoe on Unsplash

 

 

 

Filed Under: Adventure, Everyday stories Tagged With: Awkwardness, Coffee, coffee talk, laugh with me

Gifts From the Gracelaced Retreat

November 16, 2017 by Rachel

This post is not sponsored in any way. It contains a couple affiliate links, which means if you make a purchase after clicking through one of my links, I may receive a {very small} commission at no extra cost to you. Thank you for supporting this blog! It means the world and a chilly autumn photo shoot to me.

For the Gracelaced Retreat, some of Ruth’s thoughtful friends generously sent us gifts and we were completely “wowed!”

Thank you to my photographer friend, Candace, for helping express my gratitude through pictures. Below you will find links to all the lovely things:

Tribal crepe blanket scarf from Grace and Lace.

Super soft and perfect for draping, this scarf has quickly become a go-to piece in my closet. Grace and Lace is one of my favorite companies to support-a couple years I ago I purchased a few of their layering pieces and they’ve washed and lasted well: long sleeved top extender, chiffon high-low extender, pointed lace top extender

A beautiful leather shoulder bag from Better Life Bags.

This goes with me just about everywhere!

You can stuff quite a lot of books in this bag…

See my Gracelaced book peeking out?

I was delighted to receive The Life Giving Table by Sally Clarkson!

Can you spot my Soli Deo Gloria necklace from Lovishly? It’s delicate and perfect.

A handcrafted “Greatest of These” cuff from Fashion and Compassion.

Also given to each of us was a GraceLaced plaque from Carpentree Gifts & Decor.

{You can find their entire GraceLaced collection here and my “live a quiet life” fringed plaque here.}

Styling and coziness created by my friend, Candace. 😉

Sweet treats came from Tudor House Cookies and passed the test of deliciousness as well as incredible artistry!

I call this my Narnia tote bag. It’s from The Adopt Shoppe and you can find it here.

From the bottom of my heart, to all of you, thank you! ♥

Filed Under: Books, Faith, Friendship, Reading, Travel Tagged With: Books, Coffee, Gifts, Gracelaced Retreat, Reading

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